Oh, Electric Lizard Queen - this is my baby (blog) and I have not posted in quite a while.
I wanted to take this time to reflect on this whole, crazy, adventurous, roller-coaster of a ride that 2012 was and I wanted to share my crazy thoughts, dreams and intentions for 2013...
How do I begin?
The catalyst to change?
My unhappiness with where my life was headed and what I had 'not' accomplished at that point in my life - reading the Four Hour Work Week and asking myself the question:
What is the cost of inaction? And what is the worse case scenario if I go after my dreams?
Well, the cost of inaction was far scarier then ANY worst case scenario I could imagine, so I began a complete and total overhaul of my life - emotionally, mentally, spiritually, in my relationship and just every aspect of my life.
It has been a year of the happiest moments of my life, the greatest self-relfection and introspection I have ever allowed myself to experience and the greatest change of my 'emotional and mental state' (or belief systems) I have ever tackled.
Sounds crazy, huh?
Well, it's been MORE than that - if you can even imagine it...
From selling everything, to going to a new country and living there for six months, having wild animal encounters in the jungles of Costa Rica; finding secret beaches; meeting multi-millionaires and hanging out with them at a five star resort; finding my million dollar business(es) and meeting the greatest and most inspiring group of people that prove to me everything I have always wanted DOES EXIST in this world.
I wrote a list of my dreams November 2011 and made an expanded list of 100 things in April 2012 (part of it is in Be the Exception) and have checked off quite a few things by this time...
There are many things still on my list - but what's crazy is that I am already on the journey to checking those off too - so time to add even crazier stuff to it!
The greatest and hardest shift for me was my confidence in myself and how I valued my self-worth. It is an easy thing to just 'say' words (and although that is part of beginning a change to shift deep rooted subconscious beliefs) it is truly only the beginning.
There were moments when I felt like I had literally carved the inside of me and just brought it out - looked at it, examined it and just felt beyond raw and exposed. Sounds a little morbid, but this is the level of change I felt I NEEDED to go through otherwise I would not get the dreams that I had always wanted to be my reality.
For most of my life, I always had this feeling that I was waiting - waiting for something better, for things to magically improve or worse yet, for things to just get worse. Although I have tended to focus my thoughts to positive outcomes and I could be the greatest cheerleader for others to reach success, I did not do myself this service. I cut myself down inside all the time.
"I wasn't good enough. I wasn't worth it. I was worthless. I was always failing. I was bound to live with fear. I was a door mat. What would people think of me if I changed."
I would not even consider what I could accomplish if I truly tapped my potential. Maybe it was fear of success?
One of my most painful realizations this year, was that I was first in line to quit on myself - I would never have admitted this, but I was first in line to put myself down as unworthy of true happiness and success. And one line that hit me hard, that I heard from a successful, happy, wealthy (spiritually, emotionally and financially) woman this year:
"If you fire yourself, why would anyone else even consider hiring you?"
I had fired myself long ago - but not anymore.
That is no way to live. If you are not your own biggest supporter, motivator and cheerleader, then what good can you do for others in any real and lasting way?
My true purpose in this life is to live the happiest, most fulfilled and adventurous life - with the aim of serving as many people as I can in ALSO achieving their dreams and really loving themselves (that is where happiness lies).
Imagine a world like that? Everyone loving themselves and others. Simplistic? Yes. Idealistic? Yes. Possible? Maybe, maybe not - who knows. But it doesn't mean that I should give up on that dream. And I never will.
I have met people that live this way - and you know what, they HAVE affected thousands of lives already. And I have met them...this is what blew my mind and this is what I model.
So this year my life changed. Completely and irrevocably.
I have discovered words that did not really mean that much to me before - or maybe I just plain avoided them.
Consistency. Commitment. Persistance. Diligence. Action. FEAR. BELIEF. Faith. INTENTION. Possibility. POWER. Focus. Control.
These words mean very different things to me now. Why? Because when pushed into a corner and forced to take TRUE and MASSIVE action - these words take on a whole new meaning. It's do or die. It's living like there is no tomorrow because the only time to do it is NOW. Because when I see my family struggle, I know I have to step up and make sacrifices now - I will not wallow in the selfishness of laziness or procrastination because the more time I waste, the more opportunities I miss to help and affect the lives of others.
I have learned that it's not lack of resources that is the problem, but rather lack of resourcefulness.
Two individuals can look at a situation and one can say "that's a problem, it can't be helped" while the other one will say "that's an opportunity and it will either force me to change, grow or become stronger."
I strive to always do the latter - which is the hardest because it also means taking 100% responsibility and accountability for oneself.
Along with many others during this time, I find myself reflecting a lot on this year and thinking of what I'd like to accomplish in 2013. But what hit me, and what prompted me to write this post was when I realized how different my 'lens' is this year for my dreams and aspirations compared to last year.
I also realized how OBSESSED I am - what I call my magnificent obsession - with my business but that most people I meet in person are either afraid of it or just not open to the possibility that it's real. It's kind of a funny feeling because I literally feel like I am unplugged from the matrix and I can't seem to have a normal conversation about this with a lot of people.
But I do admit that when I first read the Four Hour Work Week - I asked, is this guy for real?? And had a hard time wrapping my brain around the concept of automation and income free from time (time freedom) but now it's just part of what I see as the norm and know I will always choose to live my life this way.
So what are my intentions for 2013?
- Hit $1,000,000 in earnings
- Help my family
- Help, coach and show a group of others to do the same - and make this part of my mastermind group ("you are the average of who you surround yourself with" - well, I choose to surround myself with people that know this lifestyle exists, have a burning desire to become true entrepreneurs with a big vision, and to always serve others through charitable means, business opportunities and real relationships built on trust, drive and commitment).
- Continue to study and master my training techniques to combine them with real ways to also train the mind with the body (because that is the only way real and lasting change can happen)
- Publish a book (might start with an Ebook)
- Travel to new countries, learn about new cultures and explore new territories
- Go skydiving
- Buy a house on the beach
- See miracles happen
- Discover something new that I don't even know exists right now
What are your 2013 Intentions?
One piece of advice I have for you though is:
Don't wait until 2013, START NOW. Thats the difference between achieving success versus just short term change.
Lots of love to you as always,
P.S. If you want to know what I do or what this talk of 'unplugging from the matrix' means, check out my other blog: Kat and Romeo.